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 Currently listening to: Can't Help Falling In Love With You
Artist: A*Teens
Mood: 
Hey~ what's^? =] I'm soooo bored right now, =.=;;;; there isn't anything to do... and no I actually am finished with my homework so yeah. LoLx. I'm feeling better now.. I guess. Still not over him, but I'm calmed down a bit. Tomorrow's Tuesday... back to school, and I can't cut Japanese class anymore because finals are starting and I've had enough, -_-;;; I have to go to a classroom tomorrow for gym... *sighs* wonder if he's even going to be there. Yeah I still miss him a lot.. kinda sad, haha.. but I'm not on the verge of crying anymore(at least not now), that's good enough. It's almost my birthday too. =] Anyways, I'm writing this right because I'm bored... but yesterday was ok because me and Thanh were talking the WHOLE day, from online to phone, and it was kinda fun. xD She understands if I really do like *ahem* now even if I'm not sure, she thinks he's cute too. =P LoLx. Earlier I was looking around this forum out of boredom and I found this thread... I can't reply on the forum for some reason s I'll write it here. xD
* Aik0TeArS*
1. How did you meeet the other person?
Beginning of the year in gym class
2. What kind of feeeling did you have toward the other person at first?
He's cute
3. How did the relationship start?
A friend told me he likes me
4. How long you and the other person been together?
2 months
5. Any arguments/disagreements/ btwn. you and the other person?
Not really... except our own little trivia disagreements for fun LoLx
6. What were the things you like and dislike about the other person?
Liked: He was really sweet in every way... and he always know
how to make me smile
Dislike: Sometimes it's hard for him to be serious
7. What made you no longer wanted to be in the relationship or what did
you think why the other person wanted the breakup?
You guys know the reason... if you don't, then it's a bit personal
8. How did you feel when the relationship was over? How did you think the
other person feel?
Me>>> ...
Him>> I don't know
9. What would you do in situation when you and the other person face again?
We do... but we don't talk
10. Do you still have feeeling for the other person...would you start the
relationship again with that same person?
Very much...
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 Currently listening to: Love Hurts
Artist: BoA*
Mood: I don't know
Hi~ haha I'm finally writing in here again. xD I'm just bored at the moment that's all, even if I have homework that's due when the weekend is over but I'm too lazy to do them now. =P Well hm... yesterday was Friday the 13th, how is everyone? LoLx. Nothing bad really happened to me, I guess it was just a "normal" day, on the outside it really is but... something was missing. It's been a week since the break up... I don't know if I'm anywhere near the stage of "getting over it"... I might be trying but there's always things that hold you back. Sad huh? Ah well, even if I sound better now, is because I'm really trying to push it aside... although it's going to resume anyway.. there's just no way to erase him from my mind... I might just be overreacting but... you'll never know how "love" feels like unless you've experience it yourself... trust me.. it's the worst pain possible that anyone can give you... I've talked to a few of my friends over it.. haha thanks Iris for the talk, it was fun. x] Gave me some really interesting questions too, even if some I'm unsure about the answers... I talked to Hester yesterday on the phone... she said I sounded like I really got attached to him... I guess that's true, that was my mistake... but it's too late, nothing much I can do about it... =.= somehow in the beginning I realized I was one step from falling too deep for him and get hurt later on... but I took that risk anyway.. oh well.. I still find it in me to say that I never regret going out with him... I had real happiness back then and I think it was all worth it... I mean, my life probably would have been pretty dull if he wasn't there... so I guess I don't regret it at all... just miss it... a lot. I'm still working on getting over it, =] now I think I'm beginning to get over it... but I'm not sure if I really like this other guy or am I just telling myself I like him simply to make it easier. Oh well... I'll see when I get pass this.. sorry that previous entry was so depressing. ^^;;; It just really hurts... I don't know if I have any right using the word "love"... but all I know is that I really care about him and even after what's been going on and the way he's been acting, I'm willing to give it another risk if I ever have the chance... yep how stupid can I be? LoLx.  Anyways.. I'm going to be bored again after this, guess I'll call Thanh, she must be bored too~ xD I'm not really sure if I should give my trust to people now.. since so many times they've said that they "care" about me and do all that crap... think they know my feelings well and what I need... well they're wrong. I really wish it was true when they said that because that would mean I don't have to be alone at the times, but I guess it's true when Ricky said no one ever knows you more than yourself even if they tried to. Haha... I'm stupid so even if I shouldn't, I still need people's help rather than be alone... well I'm off~ =] calling Thanh now, have fun people~
*Aik0TeArS*
Breaking up is just like having the
worst nightmare after having the best dream
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 Currently listening to: Rising Sun
Artist: DBSK
Mood:  Excited
Hey~ did you have fun over the past few days? =] I don't know if I did because I did have a lot of mood swings... LoLx. But my trip to Reno and Lake Tahoe was alright, I had a snowball fight with my little brother and cousin. xD We left kind of early though... because some things weren't going well and my aunt didn't exactly want to stay there long.. LoLx. I guess I don't blame her, it was so cold... I think I heard the temperature was below 0 the next day after we got there. I didn't even want to walk because my hands were freezing... even when I had gloves on, and my feet felt numb for walking in the snow. But it's ok, =] during the ride was nice, the surroundings and the trees were covered in snow, it was so pretty.  Anyways, it's new year's, can you believe it? xD Time passed by so quickly, and I think a lot of people want to look back at this year and what happened to you before moving on. A lot of things happened to me this year, not to mention hard times... I'm just glad I got through it and it's in the past now even if I'm not going to forget it. I hope this year will be a good year and maybe it'll be special too~ that's for the rest of you also. =D I appreciate all the people that were there for me all this time during the year, my best friends and new friends I met. Hope we'll continue to have good times together, thank you for everything you've done so far~
*Aik0TeArS*
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Currently listening to: Last Christmas
Artist: As One
Mood:
Hey~ what's^! I hope you all are having a good time =] it's Christmas, supposedly the best time of the year. xD Well... I said "supposedly" is because that's what I believed and thought that I would have a good time but... I'm not so happy today if I have to be honest.. -_- oh before I go on, let me just mention that I was sleeping over at Thanh's house yesterday night. We had our little Christmas Eve hang out if you want to call it that, =P I got there after Anna, during the time waiting for the remaining people we went to Walgreens to buy pop corn and.... Silly Strings (last minute idea). LoLx. We (Thanh, Anna and myself) all jumped Jessica and Sylvia with those things~ it was so funny. xD Sorry Sylvia if you're reading this, but it really was fun. Well... as expected, we had to go over to Henry's and buy a scary movie to watch. "The Unborn"... -_- omg that freaking movie still leave its images in my head even now... sheesh =.= I was turning and tossing almost the entire night and got hardly enough sleep because I was scared. Thanh must have felt uncomfortable since I kept turning and tossing next to her. LoLx. But besides that, we had fun yesterday if I do say so myself. We were all screaming during the movie. xD Then afterwards we played Uno... then food, then games... well, Sylvia was glued to MS while me and Anna played one of the Yoshi games on the game cube.. hehe it was so fun, especially when we were playing the tracing game where you had to move your character along the drawn line(and no it wasn't easy), Anna's line always ended up looking so funny so we had a good laugh since we were playing it repeatedly anyway. Around 6:20pm we left to go to Japan Town... it was dark outside even though it wasn't even 7 yet. We took a lot of pictures with the lights and trees... it was fun doing some of the poses. =P In the end turned out I was the only one who can sleep over so the other three went home afterwards, =/ oh before we left the place I wanted cake so I bought us one... for the price of $17... and you know what... I feel ripped off because the freaking thing was no bigger than a book... -_____- those cheaters. Oh wow this entry is long O.O LoLx. But yesterday was definitely worth the fun. =] I won't be updating for the next 2 days because my family is dragging me with them on a trip to somewhere in Reno... snowboarding and skiing!! xD Well I think you've read enough so I'll end it now~ although... I really hope I can talk to him soon because I didn't get a chance to today... and I really miss him...
*Aik0TeArS*
MERRY CHRISTMAS
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Currently listening to: Going Crazy
the first day I felt sick... emotionally and physically, cried till my eyes hurt... the 2nd day I fake my smiles and laughs to push it off my mind but never was able to... going home and collapsing on my bed, making my parents think I was sick... no matter how much I cry, the feeling would still be there... it'll never be filled unless I know everything's going to be ok... but that seems to good to be true right now... I hate the thought of breaking up with him more than anything right now... I really want to just run away from it all but it's life, and you know that the sad truth is that's impossible... I'm forced to go on with life even if it hurts so much... this is where memories of my best smiles hurt most... -_- the time I cherish and happy to have had... now feels like they're going back trying to kill me... I was so happy back then and now I might have to let all of that go... i HATE it so much... but I guess I have to accept no matter how much I just want to deny reality and live a dream... I don't want him to get hurt more than he already did... even if it tears me up inside knowing how much it's going to hurt afterwards... Being friends huh... now I understand why they hate it so much, and they would rather have the person hate them rather than be friends and know you can never have them... =.= I already despise it just thinking about how I'm just going to look at him and realize we're not what we were anymore...
